A poem about the slow process of healing.

The Artwork: Seeing What’s Hidden

Mixed Media Collage by Colleen Kam Siu

The Poem: Healing

My knowing
has often been
a black box
inside my mind.

The closer I get,
the bigger its blankness,
swallowing the question
decorating my hands:

What do you want,
Unwanting soul?

Finding a center
in this midnight
feel like an impossible task.

Trust yourself, but don’t
trust yourself,
separate the wheat
from the wheat,
discern me from me.

My knowing
has often been
a sealed seed
inside my chest.

To break it open
I must I feed it
with silence
with stillness
with a single question
surrounded by
a pillar of water:

What do you want,
Unwanting soul?

I hear a tree blooming
dropping fruit
I cannot yet see.

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